My stomach is still lumpy, I'm hoping that isn't permanent... But the good news is that the space between my breasts is closing in finally and I hope it continues to do so. I've been massaging them in all sorts of ways and they are getting much softer. I'm anxious to have someone else touch them so they can let me know what they feel like. (Because what I feel isn't what someone else will, I'm still very aware of the implant...)
I slept in my own bed last night and it felt really good finally! I've been going bra-less with just the strap on top and it seems to help. Last night I also slept without my binding garment and had no issues...maybe I won't need it that much longer after all.
Scars are looking good and the gym has felt pretty normal so overall I'm pleased!
Friday, May 11, 2012
Mini notes
Thursday, May 3, 2012
5 weeks post op update
SO! They are changing every day. I'm actually much happier when I look at them now. They look great under clothing, as I'm not wearing the band unless I sleep so I can pretty much wear all my shirts normal again. (Except the few that no longer fit!) The right nipple still doesn't have any feeling, so there is obviously some swelling present, but except for initial soreness when I wake up in the morning they feel normal. There times when I'm extremely aware of their weight though, that can get uncomfortable. I still am not wearing a normal bra, even recently when I try them on they look and feel funny. My doctor said that I might not be able to wear an underwire for possibly 3 more months. I've been wearing bandeaus instead and they work well because they hide my (always erect/swollen) nipples and I never have to worry about hiding bra straps. My stomach, however, seems to be getting fatter, and not smaller, so I'm hoping it's just the way the swelling is working itself out. The places that feel bumpy are still hurting when touched, which my doctor says means the swelling is present. I hate, hate, hate with a passion having to wear my garment [even though it makes my clothing look great!], as my skin is itchy and sore and it's uncomfortable. Dr. D said that she wore hers for 6 months after her own lipo, so I'm not anticipating it going away anytime soon.
I had a vacation last week and so I went shopping for a bathing suit before I went. It was quite difficult. I can't wear a underwire, and they don't look normal enough to wear the typical "triangle". So I shopped for the bandeau shape exclusively, which is a popular look this season so I was fortunate. I found a few tops that match my bottoms I already have and two new ones that look pretty good. Too bad I didn't really have an opportunity to wear them, but now I'm prepared for the upcoming summer season. While I was shopping thought I also bought new clothing, and they all looked really good with the new "fullness". Makes me excited to shop more!
I had my second follow up and came prepared with a list of questions. Sometimes I think she's not ready for everything I have to ask (: I asked her about the area between each breast, it's still swollen and raised and looks kinda funny so I'm hoping that will go away. She really didn't give me any answers, but I've noticed afterwards that it is going down slightly so I'm hoping that it will continue to do so.
I told her I noticed a size difference and she mentioned that the opposite breast looked bigger than the one I think does. I finally found out that she supposedly did put less CC's in one compared to the other, so now I'm not sure what happened, or will happen as time passes. It's a horrible waiting game! I asked about whether I can tan, and she said yes, and then mentioned that they "gurgle" sometimes when I massage them and that supposedly is normal.
My scars are looking great, she did an awesome job on the incisions and the last tape is no longer there either so I can keep track of them. She told me to massage them to break up the scar tissue and so I do, even though it hurts and I feel a popping sensation each time I do. It's like bubble wrap, but I suppose that means that it's working. She gave me a weird bandaid-looking thing that supposedly will help the scar get better so I use them now, which helps because I can protect the area from the tanning bed that way.
She gave me the go-ahead to sleep however I want now, but honestly, it has been so long in that position that now I can't sleep anyway else without being miserable and waking up with aches and pains. It's pathetic but I've been sleeping better on my couch than on my own bed. I'm hoping the sleeping gets better because I need my rest and I hate not sleeping well.
Ok, kinda weird but I thought I should mention, because she hadn't really heard of it before so if someone else goes through this I wanted to make sure you don't feel alone: I couldn't stop shedding for over a week. Every time I put lotion on each breast it's like my whole top layer of skin just sloughed off. It was disgusting. And it didn't stop, it just kept coming. You'd think it was over, and then I'd go to put lotion on again the next day and there it was happening again. I will say that now when I lotion-up everything is "normal", so no worries. I told her I thought it was because I didn't have any room to start and now my body was quickly regenerating skin so I could fit them, lol. Who knows. Just don't freak out, it does go away.
I asked her if I could exercise and she said yes! Greatest news ever, I've been going stir crazy and as much as I lost weight [obviously] in my stomach area I've been gaining it everywhere else. I'm hoping it helps with all the swelling as well, even though she said it will make it worse initially. I just have to wear a good sports bra and she says that I will probably want to wear the supportive garment as well because of the up and down. But overall, I've been given a green light. I went back for the first time this week and it felt good, but also strange. The running hurt at first, but it wore away after a few minutes. I went twice so far, and each time was the same. The worst wasn't the breasts or the lipo-ed area, but the rest of my "fat" lazy body finally moving!
I have another follow up in a few weeks. I'll post another update then!
I had a vacation last week and so I went shopping for a bathing suit before I went. It was quite difficult. I can't wear a underwire, and they don't look normal enough to wear the typical "triangle". So I shopped for the bandeau shape exclusively, which is a popular look this season so I was fortunate. I found a few tops that match my bottoms I already have and two new ones that look pretty good. Too bad I didn't really have an opportunity to wear them, but now I'm prepared for the upcoming summer season. While I was shopping thought I also bought new clothing, and they all looked really good with the new "fullness". Makes me excited to shop more!
I had my second follow up and came prepared with a list of questions. Sometimes I think she's not ready for everything I have to ask (: I asked her about the area between each breast, it's still swollen and raised and looks kinda funny so I'm hoping that will go away. She really didn't give me any answers, but I've noticed afterwards that it is going down slightly so I'm hoping that it will continue to do so.
I told her I noticed a size difference and she mentioned that the opposite breast looked bigger than the one I think does. I finally found out that she supposedly did put less CC's in one compared to the other, so now I'm not sure what happened, or will happen as time passes. It's a horrible waiting game! I asked about whether I can tan, and she said yes, and then mentioned that they "gurgle" sometimes when I massage them and that supposedly is normal.
My scars are looking great, she did an awesome job on the incisions and the last tape is no longer there either so I can keep track of them. She told me to massage them to break up the scar tissue and so I do, even though it hurts and I feel a popping sensation each time I do. It's like bubble wrap, but I suppose that means that it's working. She gave me a weird bandaid-looking thing that supposedly will help the scar get better so I use them now, which helps because I can protect the area from the tanning bed that way.
She gave me the go-ahead to sleep however I want now, but honestly, it has been so long in that position that now I can't sleep anyway else without being miserable and waking up with aches and pains. It's pathetic but I've been sleeping better on my couch than on my own bed. I'm hoping the sleeping gets better because I need my rest and I hate not sleeping well.
Ok, kinda weird but I thought I should mention, because she hadn't really heard of it before so if someone else goes through this I wanted to make sure you don't feel alone: I couldn't stop shedding for over a week. Every time I put lotion on each breast it's like my whole top layer of skin just sloughed off. It was disgusting. And it didn't stop, it just kept coming. You'd think it was over, and then I'd go to put lotion on again the next day and there it was happening again. I will say that now when I lotion-up everything is "normal", so no worries. I told her I thought it was because I didn't have any room to start and now my body was quickly regenerating skin so I could fit them, lol. Who knows. Just don't freak out, it does go away.
I asked her if I could exercise and she said yes! Greatest news ever, I've been going stir crazy and as much as I lost weight [obviously] in my stomach area I've been gaining it everywhere else. I'm hoping it helps with all the swelling as well, even though she said it will make it worse initially. I just have to wear a good sports bra and she says that I will probably want to wear the supportive garment as well because of the up and down. But overall, I've been given a green light. I went back for the first time this week and it felt good, but also strange. The running hurt at first, but it wore away after a few minutes. I went twice so far, and each time was the same. The worst wasn't the breasts or the lipo-ed area, but the rest of my "fat" lazy body finally moving!
I have another follow up in a few weeks. I'll post another update then!
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Little Updates
1. Movement is getting better each day. I still find myself waking up in the middle of the night having to stretch my arms though, as they get very tight from not doing much, especially while sleeping.
2. I was back to my nanny job for the first time today. I've been dead tired all day because of it. It actually took a lot out of me and I didn't do much, so I'm not sure how I'm going to handle cleaning her house this Friday. The going is most definitely slower than normal.
3. I've stopped putting vitamin E on my incisions, because my smart ass didn't realize that the surgeon's glue is still present and at this point it's doing nothing but making a mess and ruining my bra. I will resume once all that's there is a scar.
4. I have less pain every day, but different sensations appear also. Right now I'm experiencing a sharp pang in my left breast close to the breast bone that comes and goes at random. It's very uncomfortable and there's nothing I can do but grin and bear it, which is worse in public because I keep wanting to say "ow". My stomach is regaining sensation but my nipples haven't [yet, cross fingers]. The swelling on my stomach is less and less, I can tell because the Velcro on the binding from the doctor keeps changing positions. Also, I DETEST the band that I wear across my chest, it hurts worse every day. That, so far, is the worst part at this point. I can't wait until it's gone.
5. I have eczema and most of my life I forget this. Until I decide to buy a Nivea firming lotion that I think will be great for my newly siphoned stomach skin and discover that it does everything but moisturize. That plus the antibacterial soap that I foolishly continued using (it's gel based and very drying) and the fifteen layers I wear everyday that create a furnace around my neck have created a million and one little bumps and scaly skin around my neck, arms and chest. It's been lovely.
6. I purchased new "bras" yesterday. After hours of searching through endless types and guessing at a size (I think so far I'm a 36 C but don't quote me), I found a few that were similar to shelf bras inside a camisole and got those to wear during the day instead. They are more comfortable and hide my unsightly swollen nipples well. Because of my new wears, I actually am starting to like what I look like in the mirror. Clothing looks much better as well. I'm starting to get to that point you read about where the chicks all want people to look at them and touch them. I have no shame, if someone said "show me your tits" I'd probably flash them without even thinking. I presume it's because my thought process on them is that they aren't really a part of my body yet, and right now they are still a "new item I just bought" and must show off. Wonder if that will change....
7. I also broke my "no shopping" rule that I made for myself back in October to help save money and also because I was getting a new "body" so to speak. I still don't think it's a good idea to buy actual clothing since I'm not really "normal" yet, but I bought myself a little of everything else and it felt good. I was tempted to buy a summer dress because it's not going to look much different on my once I "settle". It's still in the back of my mind so I might go back before my vacation at the end of the month and treat myself (:
8. One of my breasts has started to drop and fluff already. It's leaving the other one in the dust. I heard that might happen but it's kinda sad. And if it continues it will start to look funny. I'm going to have to massage the other one more now, I think it needs the attention. Whore.
9. My sister called me sexy when I sent her a picture. One of my best friends told me she thinks everyone will notice. My coworker commented to another coworker that I appeared to be wearing a really padded bra today. She just shrugged at him and pretended he didn't know what he was talking about. So far he's the only one that I've noticed has noticed. Unless people are just being polite. And females don't pay as much attention anyway. I told my desk partner: "It looks like before when I would wear padded bras. Except now it's no longer padded and it's also no longer false advertising!"
2. I was back to my nanny job for the first time today. I've been dead tired all day because of it. It actually took a lot out of me and I didn't do much, so I'm not sure how I'm going to handle cleaning her house this Friday. The going is most definitely slower than normal.
3. I've stopped putting vitamin E on my incisions, because my smart ass didn't realize that the surgeon's glue is still present and at this point it's doing nothing but making a mess and ruining my bra. I will resume once all that's there is a scar.
4. I have less pain every day, but different sensations appear also. Right now I'm experiencing a sharp pang in my left breast close to the breast bone that comes and goes at random. It's very uncomfortable and there's nothing I can do but grin and bear it, which is worse in public because I keep wanting to say "ow". My stomach is regaining sensation but my nipples haven't [yet, cross fingers]. The swelling on my stomach is less and less, I can tell because the Velcro on the binding from the doctor keeps changing positions. Also, I DETEST the band that I wear across my chest, it hurts worse every day. That, so far, is the worst part at this point. I can't wait until it's gone.
5. I have eczema and most of my life I forget this. Until I decide to buy a Nivea firming lotion that I think will be great for my newly siphoned stomach skin and discover that it does everything but moisturize. That plus the antibacterial soap that I foolishly continued using (it's gel based and very drying) and the fifteen layers I wear everyday that create a furnace around my neck have created a million and one little bumps and scaly skin around my neck, arms and chest. It's been lovely.
6. I purchased new "bras" yesterday. After hours of searching through endless types and guessing at a size (I think so far I'm a 36 C but don't quote me), I found a few that were similar to shelf bras inside a camisole and got those to wear during the day instead. They are more comfortable and hide my unsightly swollen nipples well. Because of my new wears, I actually am starting to like what I look like in the mirror. Clothing looks much better as well. I'm starting to get to that point you read about where the chicks all want people to look at them and touch them. I have no shame, if someone said "show me your tits" I'd probably flash them without even thinking. I presume it's because my thought process on them is that they aren't really a part of my body yet, and right now they are still a "new item I just bought" and must show off. Wonder if that will change....
7. I also broke my "no shopping" rule that I made for myself back in October to help save money and also because I was getting a new "body" so to speak. I still don't think it's a good idea to buy actual clothing since I'm not really "normal" yet, but I bought myself a little of everything else and it felt good. I was tempted to buy a summer dress because it's not going to look much different on my once I "settle". It's still in the back of my mind so I might go back before my vacation at the end of the month and treat myself (:
8. One of my breasts has started to drop and fluff already. It's leaving the other one in the dust. I heard that might happen but it's kinda sad. And if it continues it will start to look funny. I'm going to have to massage the other one more now, I think it needs the attention. Whore.
9. My sister called me sexy when I sent her a picture. One of my best friends told me she thinks everyone will notice. My coworker commented to another coworker that I appeared to be wearing a really padded bra today. She just shrugged at him and pretended he didn't know what he was talking about. So far he's the only one that I've noticed has noticed. Unless people are just being polite. And females don't pay as much attention anyway. I told my desk partner: "It looks like before when I would wear padded bras. Except now it's no longer padded and it's also no longer false advertising!"
Friday, April 6, 2012
Friday
Today was, by far, the best day! I spent most of the night awake, I'm not sure if it's because I've been sleeping so much or because I took a vicodin before I went to bed. Regardless, I woke up late, had breakfast and then fell asleep on the couch again until the afternoon.
I took off all my lovely "bindings" and decided to take a "one week after" photo in the same bathing suit I wore in the pictures I took "before". The band that I've started wearing has already helped, the implants seem to be settling down more. My stomach also looked exceptionally better than yesterday, I'd say almost half the swelling is gone already. Everything I read online last night said that it takes 4-6 weeks to see a major difference and up to 6 months to see the final results. When I was at the my appt yesterday I asked about what other pain meds I can take instead of Tylenol because I don't feel like it's working. I started taking Advil now instead, and I think it's finally helping with the swelling and pain because I feel much better. Also, it could be the walk yesterday as well. Who knows, all I know is that I feel and look much better than I have yet.
Then in all my feeling-good-ness I decided to clean myself up a bit and take a shower. This time was much different from the first, I was able to move much better, wash my hair again and even shave [you'd be amazed at what can happen under your arms in only a week!]. Once again I spent every last drop of hot water. I did my massages that I was instructed to do in the shower, and they were quite uncomfortable. I'm gaining more and more feeling back in them each day, and only to my chagrin as they are still oh so very sore.
So, since I continued to feel good I decided to try blow drying my hair. Success! It took a little longer than usual, but I was able to do it ok. [p.s. I've been putting vitamin E oil on my incisions and noticed today as I was applying that I have some nasty yellow bruises under each breast. Lovely.]
I also managed to take another walk up and down main street and it was much quicker than yesterday and I felt much more energetic. Since I can't make it to the gym like I'm used to, I think I'll continue the walking to keep me from going rigid. Once I was home I was still feeling good so I tidied up my apartment and even managed to {slowly} do my dishes.
Am I doing too much? Maybe. I'll probably find out tomorrow. But as of now, I finally feel back to normal {mostly} and am loving the new arm mobility and decreasing pain.
Here's to hoping it lasts...
I took off all my lovely "bindings" and decided to take a "one week after" photo in the same bathing suit I wore in the pictures I took "before". The band that I've started wearing has already helped, the implants seem to be settling down more. My stomach also looked exceptionally better than yesterday, I'd say almost half the swelling is gone already. Everything I read online last night said that it takes 4-6 weeks to see a major difference and up to 6 months to see the final results. When I was at the my appt yesterday I asked about what other pain meds I can take instead of Tylenol because I don't feel like it's working. I started taking Advil now instead, and I think it's finally helping with the swelling and pain because I feel much better. Also, it could be the walk yesterday as well. Who knows, all I know is that I feel and look much better than I have yet.
Then in all my feeling-good-ness I decided to clean myself up a bit and take a shower. This time was much different from the first, I was able to move much better, wash my hair again and even shave [you'd be amazed at what can happen under your arms in only a week!]. Once again I spent every last drop of hot water. I did my massages that I was instructed to do in the shower, and they were quite uncomfortable. I'm gaining more and more feeling back in them each day, and only to my chagrin as they are still oh so very sore.
So, since I continued to feel good I decided to try blow drying my hair. Success! It took a little longer than usual, but I was able to do it ok. [p.s. I've been putting vitamin E oil on my incisions and noticed today as I was applying that I have some nasty yellow bruises under each breast. Lovely.]
I also managed to take another walk up and down main street and it was much quicker than yesterday and I felt much more energetic. Since I can't make it to the gym like I'm used to, I think I'll continue the walking to keep me from going rigid. Once I was home I was still feeling good so I tidied up my apartment and even managed to {slowly} do my dishes.
Am I doing too much? Maybe. I'll probably find out tomorrow. But as of now, I finally feel back to normal {mostly} and am loving the new arm mobility and decreasing pain.
Here's to hoping it lasts...
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Thursday
I had my post op doctor's visit today. Let me tell you: driving down there was something else! I really thought I'd be in better shape by now, but that trip taught me otherwise. I did my best to drive as careful as possible, but if anything would have happened I would have been screwed.
When I got there I didn't wait long and was whisked into a room to see my nurse. She told me to get undressed and put on a robe. Then we undid my bra and waist binder.
Side note: I finally took a shower last night. It was wonderful. Weird in some places, as I couldn't feel the water everywhere and it was hard to maneuver, but still wonderful. I used every last drop of hot water possible. I also washed my hair [yay!] but didn't shave because I still can't reach certain areas. When I got out I put on the second bra that I came home with and also the new binder. I slept like a rock.
Ok, so I'm swollen. Really swollen. Even my doctor says so. As far as my stomach, she says it may take a month to finally go down. Walking will help, but it also may add to the irritation. I was told to drink water and avoid salt. She also wants me to stop wearing what they gave me because it's not very comfortable and buy Spanks or a corset or something from the underwear dept at a store.
As far as my breasts, she said they are really high and swollen as well. She brought me a band, made of the same material that was on my waist, and told me that I need to wear it 24/7 for probably the next 3 weeks to help push them down into place. Awesome. One more thing to make me feel super sexy.
I asked her about arm movement and she said that I could do whatever I wanted as long as I didn't push myself and it didn't hurt. If I take it slow and am careful I can even blow dry my hair if I want. She said light exercise like walking is ok. I asked her if the feeling would come back in my nipples [inquiring minds want to know!] and I was told that it would, I'm too swollen now, and that no one had ever permanently lost sensation there. Phew!
The bra I had on was too tight so she got me a new one that was closer to the original I had come home in. I can wear a camisole if it's tight or has a shelf bra instead if I want, but no sports bras because they might push the implants up again. She taught me a simple exercise to move the implants around in the shower and help them settle. I asked her about all of the fancy techniques for massaging that I saw on the internet and she said that wasn't necessary. Hmmmm...who to believe??? [I am inclined to believe my own surgeon, but then in the back of my head can't help but wonder why other surgeons recommend differently...]
She told me everything looks normal, even though I feel like a freak, and said to see her in two more weeks for another follow up. And then we were done, just like that!
When I got home I was tired, the driving was really taxing, and so I ate and sat around for a bit. Then I decided to take that walk that I had meant to take the other day [gotta pay them bills!] so I grabbed my phone and ventured out.
OMG. Waaaaay harder than I thought.
It took me almost an hour to walk like ten blocks. My body was complaining the whole time and I kept having to remind myself that my shoulders should be back and not to grab my stomach [I resembled someone about to throw up]. By the time I was home I was out of breath and exhausted. I'm inclined to think that it was probably good for me, but I need to take it a little slower.
However, nothing hurts as bad as the new band across my chest squeezing air out of my lungs and fighting the two bags of silicone that are trying to push back up. This is going to be a very painful month!
When I got there I didn't wait long and was whisked into a room to see my nurse. She told me to get undressed and put on a robe. Then we undid my bra and waist binder.
Side note: I finally took a shower last night. It was wonderful. Weird in some places, as I couldn't feel the water everywhere and it was hard to maneuver, but still wonderful. I used every last drop of hot water possible. I also washed my hair [yay!] but didn't shave because I still can't reach certain areas. When I got out I put on the second bra that I came home with and also the new binder. I slept like a rock.
Ok, so I'm swollen. Really swollen. Even my doctor says so. As far as my stomach, she says it may take a month to finally go down. Walking will help, but it also may add to the irritation. I was told to drink water and avoid salt. She also wants me to stop wearing what they gave me because it's not very comfortable and buy Spanks or a corset or something from the underwear dept at a store.
As far as my breasts, she said they are really high and swollen as well. She brought me a band, made of the same material that was on my waist, and told me that I need to wear it 24/7 for probably the next 3 weeks to help push them down into place. Awesome. One more thing to make me feel super sexy.
I asked her about arm movement and she said that I could do whatever I wanted as long as I didn't push myself and it didn't hurt. If I take it slow and am careful I can even blow dry my hair if I want. She said light exercise like walking is ok. I asked her if the feeling would come back in my nipples [inquiring minds want to know!] and I was told that it would, I'm too swollen now, and that no one had ever permanently lost sensation there. Phew!
The bra I had on was too tight so she got me a new one that was closer to the original I had come home in. I can wear a camisole if it's tight or has a shelf bra instead if I want, but no sports bras because they might push the implants up again. She taught me a simple exercise to move the implants around in the shower and help them settle. I asked her about all of the fancy techniques for massaging that I saw on the internet and she said that wasn't necessary. Hmmmm...who to believe??? [I am inclined to believe my own surgeon, but then in the back of my head can't help but wonder why other surgeons recommend differently...]
She told me everything looks normal, even though I feel like a freak, and said to see her in two more weeks for another follow up. And then we were done, just like that!
When I got home I was tired, the driving was really taxing, and so I ate and sat around for a bit. Then I decided to take that walk that I had meant to take the other day [gotta pay them bills!] so I grabbed my phone and ventured out.
OMG. Waaaaay harder than I thought.
It took me almost an hour to walk like ten blocks. My body was complaining the whole time and I kept having to remind myself that my shoulders should be back and not to grab my stomach [I resembled someone about to throw up]. By the time I was home I was out of breath and exhausted. I'm inclined to think that it was probably good for me, but I need to take it a little slower.
However, nothing hurts as bad as the new band across my chest squeezing air out of my lungs and fighting the two bags of silicone that are trying to push back up. This is going to be a very painful month!
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Surgery Day Recap
After only getting 3 hours of sleep, I woke up around 4 am right when my alarm went off. I was so worried that I wouldn't hear it, but thankfully I did. I wasn't nervous, but I was a little anxious that I wouldn't be done in time. I made sure that all my packing was complete, which included making sure all my food I needed for the weekend was in a bag for my friend's house. I took a shower, washing in my antibacterial soap again, and I made sure I washed my hair good and shaved good [since I knew I wouldn't be allowed to for at least a week]. I had decided to wear makeup because my doctor said that would be fine. No lotion or deodorant though, which was weird because I always have dry skin and the soap made it worse. I made sure I had a coat and a pillow and a bucket for the ride home and then got myself together and waited for my ride.
My friend picked me up a few minutes early [thank goodness my usually late ass was early today!], and we headed down to the hospital. I still wasn't nervous, and we kept ourselves talking so I couldn't focus on it too much. She always drives fast so we arrived closer to 6am than the 630am I was told. We ended up getting there at the same time as the receptionist, which I think threw her off guard because she was a little disheveled. We sat in the waiting room with another couple until she was ready and then I said goodbye to my friend and was walked into another part of the hospital.
She brought me into a low lit room that reminded me of a hotel room, minus the bed. I was instructed to undress completely and put on a hospital gown and robe along with some warm green socks. Even though I hadn't had anything to drink for over 12 hours and had already gone to the bathroom that morning, she told me to give her a urine sample in the attached bathroom. Somehow my body obliged!
While in the bathroom I looked at my naked body for the last time. It was weird, I didn't feel as ugly as I had the other night when I was taking my before shots. I still wasn't nervous, but I did feel a little sad knowing I'd never see that again. But I put on my extremely attractive surgery attire and sat in the chair waiting to see what was next.
A nurse came in, one I'd never met before, and she was a little grumpy. She started asking me questions and then had me sit next to her on the couch. I started signing paperwork and noticed that my DOB was wrong so once I pointed it out suddenly it put them in a tizy and we had to do all the paperwork from the beginning over again. The first lady came in and took the old paperwork and then was in and out getting it straightened out.
Nurse #1 hooked me up to a bunch of machines, taking my blood pressure, monitoring my heart rate, etc. She couldn't find the oral health interview I had done earlier that week so she did it again. Then she took my temperature. BIG UH OH. She used a tool that read from my ear, and it said my temp was 99.9 and 100.1. That's a definite fever. I was so confused because I had taken my temp the day before and it was normal. The nurse started getting nervous and was giving me looks like suddenly I was going home and it was over. NOW I WAS NERVOUS. I was NOT going to go home after all of this without my surgery being done. She ran out to confer with other people in the hospital. She came back in and took it again. Same thing. My friend who is going to be my nurse in the room with me came in and checked on me. What's going on? I told her that I had felt a slight sore throat earlier in the week but it went away as soon as it came and I was taking my vitamins so I didn't know what was up. She left and came back in with a different thermometer that measured from under the armpit. That came back normal. She told me she'd give the info to my doctor and in the end her and my anesthesiologist would make the final call. Not gonna lie, I started praying and praying and praying at that point.
I was able to text my sister and a few friends for a few minutes, finally acknowledging that I was nervous as all hell. My emotions were a mix of excitement, calm and pure nerves. I'm not sure how, but I was a roller-coaster.
Another nurse came in. Asked me a million more questions. Tried to be cute and funny. I wasn't in the mood. Did I care that she fought with her husband before coming to work? No. Did I care that she wanted me to be as comfortable as possible and feel safe and secure. Nope. At this point I was ready to get in and get out.
Then the anesthesiologist came in. She had a russian-like accent and was really sweet. I was told that I shouldn't have worn eye makeup because of the "goop" she uses to keep my eyes shut during the procedure. [p.s. that goop stayed on my eyes for days fyi]. Had I known, I wouldn't have but of course, I was given two different stories. She went over my health questions AGAIN [I swear I was asked everything almost 7 times] and said I looked perfect on paper and asked how I felt. I told her I was feeling fine and couldn't understand why I had a fever. She made sure all my piercings were out and then left.
Finally my doctor came in. She had me undress and started marking me with a permanent marker. Then I got dressed again, was given a warm blanket and lead to my locker to put away my phone. Then right into the operating room I went.
Suddenly my slow morning felt a little rushed. I was immediately put on the table, and the anesthesiologist went right to work on putting in my IV. They were all in good moods, joking around with me. She told me she was giving me a cocktail, and it was a good one so she'd be charging me $10 "which is a good deal because if you're in the city a good one costs $15". I told her she'd have to wait because it was in my other pants pocket. My friend was joking with me as well, and I was in a mood that had me giggling nonstop. I couldn't believe it was finally happening.
I remember feeling the IV working and it felt great. There aren't many memories between that initial feeling of "high" and the oxygen mask going on my face. I was out.
When I woke up, I remember seeing my friend again. She told me I did well and that they went big, putting 375 cc in. Did they get a lot out of my stomach? "As much as they could". They told me they put in a call to my friend to come get me. I think I fell asleep again.
The afternoon is blurry. Somehow I got from the operating room to a recovery suite. My friend was there and she took a picture of me. I remember passing out for a while and she sat reading a book. I woke up because the pain was suddenly very intense even though I had taken pain rx. I started freaking out and we called in the nurses to get an idea of what to do. They ended up giving me a more powerful medication through my IV, that suddenly made me sick to my stomach so then I was given a anti-nausea medication as well. Finally I was feeling somewhat ok and they handed my friend my aftercare instructions and I was wheeled out to the car.
The ride home was very painful, but I was in and out of consciousness so somehow I made it. I barely remember getting out or getting into her spare bedroom. The rest of the day all I did was sleep until she would wake me up to eat and take more medication. I thought I wouldn't have an appetite but I was STARVING. I think I ate more in the last week than I have all month.
That's pretty much all I can remember...the rest is, what they say, history (:
My friend picked me up a few minutes early [thank goodness my usually late ass was early today!], and we headed down to the hospital. I still wasn't nervous, and we kept ourselves talking so I couldn't focus on it too much. She always drives fast so we arrived closer to 6am than the 630am I was told. We ended up getting there at the same time as the receptionist, which I think threw her off guard because she was a little disheveled. We sat in the waiting room with another couple until she was ready and then I said goodbye to my friend and was walked into another part of the hospital.
She brought me into a low lit room that reminded me of a hotel room, minus the bed. I was instructed to undress completely and put on a hospital gown and robe along with some warm green socks. Even though I hadn't had anything to drink for over 12 hours and had already gone to the bathroom that morning, she told me to give her a urine sample in the attached bathroom. Somehow my body obliged!
While in the bathroom I looked at my naked body for the last time. It was weird, I didn't feel as ugly as I had the other night when I was taking my before shots. I still wasn't nervous, but I did feel a little sad knowing I'd never see that again. But I put on my extremely attractive surgery attire and sat in the chair waiting to see what was next.
A nurse came in, one I'd never met before, and she was a little grumpy. She started asking me questions and then had me sit next to her on the couch. I started signing paperwork and noticed that my DOB was wrong so once I pointed it out suddenly it put them in a tizy and we had to do all the paperwork from the beginning over again. The first lady came in and took the old paperwork and then was in and out getting it straightened out.
Nurse #1 hooked me up to a bunch of machines, taking my blood pressure, monitoring my heart rate, etc. She couldn't find the oral health interview I had done earlier that week so she did it again. Then she took my temperature. BIG UH OH. She used a tool that read from my ear, and it said my temp was 99.9 and 100.1. That's a definite fever. I was so confused because I had taken my temp the day before and it was normal. The nurse started getting nervous and was giving me looks like suddenly I was going home and it was over. NOW I WAS NERVOUS. I was NOT going to go home after all of this without my surgery being done. She ran out to confer with other people in the hospital. She came back in and took it again. Same thing. My friend who is going to be my nurse in the room with me came in and checked on me. What's going on? I told her that I had felt a slight sore throat earlier in the week but it went away as soon as it came and I was taking my vitamins so I didn't know what was up. She left and came back in with a different thermometer that measured from under the armpit. That came back normal. She told me she'd give the info to my doctor and in the end her and my anesthesiologist would make the final call. Not gonna lie, I started praying and praying and praying at that point.
I was able to text my sister and a few friends for a few minutes, finally acknowledging that I was nervous as all hell. My emotions were a mix of excitement, calm and pure nerves. I'm not sure how, but I was a roller-coaster.
Another nurse came in. Asked me a million more questions. Tried to be cute and funny. I wasn't in the mood. Did I care that she fought with her husband before coming to work? No. Did I care that she wanted me to be as comfortable as possible and feel safe and secure. Nope. At this point I was ready to get in and get out.
Then the anesthesiologist came in. She had a russian-like accent and was really sweet. I was told that I shouldn't have worn eye makeup because of the "goop" she uses to keep my eyes shut during the procedure. [p.s. that goop stayed on my eyes for days fyi]. Had I known, I wouldn't have but of course, I was given two different stories. She went over my health questions AGAIN [I swear I was asked everything almost 7 times] and said I looked perfect on paper and asked how I felt. I told her I was feeling fine and couldn't understand why I had a fever. She made sure all my piercings were out and then left.
Finally my doctor came in. She had me undress and started marking me with a permanent marker. Then I got dressed again, was given a warm blanket and lead to my locker to put away my phone. Then right into the operating room I went.
Suddenly my slow morning felt a little rushed. I was immediately put on the table, and the anesthesiologist went right to work on putting in my IV. They were all in good moods, joking around with me. She told me she was giving me a cocktail, and it was a good one so she'd be charging me $10 "which is a good deal because if you're in the city a good one costs $15". I told her she'd have to wait because it was in my other pants pocket. My friend was joking with me as well, and I was in a mood that had me giggling nonstop. I couldn't believe it was finally happening.
I remember feeling the IV working and it felt great. There aren't many memories between that initial feeling of "high" and the oxygen mask going on my face. I was out.
When I woke up, I remember seeing my friend again. She told me I did well and that they went big, putting 375 cc in. Did they get a lot out of my stomach? "As much as they could". They told me they put in a call to my friend to come get me. I think I fell asleep again.
The afternoon is blurry. Somehow I got from the operating room to a recovery suite. My friend was there and she took a picture of me. I remember passing out for a while and she sat reading a book. I woke up because the pain was suddenly very intense even though I had taken pain rx. I started freaking out and we called in the nurses to get an idea of what to do. They ended up giving me a more powerful medication through my IV, that suddenly made me sick to my stomach so then I was given a anti-nausea medication as well. Finally I was feeling somewhat ok and they handed my friend my aftercare instructions and I was wheeled out to the car.
The ride home was very painful, but I was in and out of consciousness so somehow I made it. I barely remember getting out or getting into her spare bedroom. The rest of the day all I did was sleep until she would wake me up to eat and take more medication. I thought I wouldn't have an appetite but I was STARVING. I think I ate more in the last week than I have all month.
That's pretty much all I can remember...the rest is, what they say, history (:
More hope
You can tell I'm going a little crazy about how I look right now because when I'm not sleeping my pain away I'm up on the internet looking for people who went through the same thing as me. I found the following website showing a look similar to mine. It's also very informative on the whole BA process from beginning to end if someone wants an overview. I'd recommend reading the entire page.
*This picture shows before, 2 days post op, and 3 months post op
*This picture shows before, 2 days post op, and 3 months post op
Wednesday
Last night I slept really good. Towards the end of the day I was walking around easier than I ever had. I watched a lot of online videos and most people were relatively active by their 5th day so I decided to make myself move more. I still took my heavy rx before I went to sleep because I wanted to make sure I wasn't in pain during the night.
I plan to take a shower today and try and move around. My nurse said I could wash my hair, but I'm scared to put my hands above my head because everything I've read says that I should avoid that. We'll see. I need to go pay some bills at some places that are within walking distance. Hopefully my body can handle it.
My breasts aren't as sore as they have been, now the discomfort I feel is mainly in my abdomen. I'm hoping the swelling goes down soon, I still feel like I'm six months pregnant. Part of it may still be that I'm not really regular still. I keep taking the stool softener and having a fiber drink once a day.
I'm not going to WW tonight. Mostly because it's still hard to move around and I want to save my driving for tomorrow's follow up appointment. I know I have about 10 lbs in water weight alone, so it would probably be a huge disappointment anyway. I'm planning on saving that craziness for next week.
I am so excited to stand under hot massaging water for as long as it will last...hope it washes away these horrid aches!
I plan to take a shower today and try and move around. My nurse said I could wash my hair, but I'm scared to put my hands above my head because everything I've read says that I should avoid that. We'll see. I need to go pay some bills at some places that are within walking distance. Hopefully my body can handle it.
My breasts aren't as sore as they have been, now the discomfort I feel is mainly in my abdomen. I'm hoping the swelling goes down soon, I still feel like I'm six months pregnant. Part of it may still be that I'm not really regular still. I keep taking the stool softener and having a fiber drink once a day.
I'm not going to WW tonight. Mostly because it's still hard to move around and I want to save my driving for tomorrow's follow up appointment. I know I have about 10 lbs in water weight alone, so it would probably be a huge disappointment anyway. I'm planning on saving that craziness for next week.
I am so excited to stand under hot massaging water for as long as it will last...hope it washes away these horrid aches!
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Stages of healing
The following video has given me a little more hope that my "look" isn't permanent. She looked very similar to me in the first couple of weeks so it helps me believe that I'll drop to a more normal appearance as well.
Hope this helps you ladies out there going through the same thing!!!
Tuesday
I woke up this morning more sore than if I'd been hit by a truck. I'm not sure if it's the way I'm sleeping, or the pain medication sitting in my muscles or perhaps a combo of both. All I know is I am dying for a nice, hot, tub and it's the one thing I can't have.
It's a weird feeling: usually this is my busiest day and yet here I am with nothing to do and nothing on my agenda. It should feel good, but instead I'm antsy and a little on edge. My mind is telling me that I should get myself presentable and try and make something of today while my body is telling me I shouldn't even move from the couch to the kitchen. Who will win? Well, that's easy. But is it the right choice?
I told a friend that I would meet her at a bar this coming Friday night. I'm rethinking that idea. I'm not sure if I'll be in "working order" yet by then. I mean, I hope I am, but so far I don't feel any progression as far as getting better. Plus, I'm still very self conscious about the look of my breasts and I'm don't want to be in public with them yet.
I found this on the internet yesterday:
It's a weird feeling: usually this is my busiest day and yet here I am with nothing to do and nothing on my agenda. It should feel good, but instead I'm antsy and a little on edge. My mind is telling me that I should get myself presentable and try and make something of today while my body is telling me I shouldn't even move from the couch to the kitchen. Who will win? Well, that's easy. But is it the right choice?
I told a friend that I would meet her at a bar this coming Friday night. I'm rethinking that idea. I'm not sure if I'll be in "working order" yet by then. I mean, I hope I am, but so far I don't feel any progression as far as getting better. Plus, I'm still very self conscious about the look of my breasts and I'm don't want to be in public with them yet.
I found this on the internet yesterday:
Since I am too embarrassed to post an actual picture of myself, this is the closest I could find to what's going on with me. I definitely look a lot like the second picture, with the weird shape and the funny placed nipples. Plus I'm not sure if you can see here, but they are also far apart. I'm hoping that the progression you see here is going to be the same for me. I can definitely wait 3 months to look normal, I just don't want to be stuck on the 3 days look.
I'm nasty. I haven't showered or bathed at all. It's been too painful. I still have a hard time just standing up and sitting down. The worst is trying to get out of bed in the am, I look ridiculous and I get so frustrated because it's nearly impossible. I'm not supposed to use my upper body, particularly my arms, and yet it's almost like I can't help it. And my abdomen is still excruciatingly sore so that's not helping either since it's what I should be using to hoist myself up. The bra and the binding are so uncomfortable, I just want to rip them off, but I'm supposed to keep them on for the next 3 weeks. Yuck. At least my doctor told me to go buy some Spanks and use them instead, hopefully they will feel better. I'm going to ask her if I can wear a sports bra instead too, at least that might help minimize the "press" so to speak if I go out.
I am dying for the chance to be a participating [clean!] citizen again...I just want this part behind me, and pronto!
Monday, April 2, 2012
Monday
I'm into my forth day. Everything is still a little weird. I woke up feeling really tight and tense because of sleeping upright and not really moving. My friend still had to put her hand behind my back for me to successfully sit up.
The pain is much better, now it's mostly just aches aches and tight muscles. Last night I had a bit of a scare because there was this really intense burning sensation in the inside of my left breast and it felt like my skin was ripping out of me. I took my temperature and kept an eye on the size to make sure it wasn't an infection. My nurse had given me a phone number for questions, so I tried calling it, but haven't heard anything back not even today.
I woke up every few minutes last night because of the ripping pain in my bowels. I FINALLY had a BM today, but it was really not easy and I'm still worried. I almost think that pain is worse than what I was experiencing after my surgery.
I'm trying to just use Tylenol today to see how that goes. So far so good. My friend took me home and now I'm doing everything on my own. It's weird realizing all the things you use your arms for, especially the reaching movement that I can't do. My cat keeps wanting to give me love and she is mostly getting in the way and I can't even swat her away.
I took a muscle relaxer with my second does of Tylenol today. I'm hoping it does something to the crazy disaster I have on my chest right now. It makes me freak out and wonder when I'll be able to go in public again. Good thing I'm alone because I have no desire to show these off at this point. I keep looking up on the internet to see if people generally go through this and I've found that most people hate them when they are first done. I'm just not sure I'm like most people. My incisions seem to be in weird noticeable places, and they are definitely uneven which was supposed to be fixed. As far as I can tell, she put the full 375 in each as opposed to a little less on the left side.
I still haven't taken off the wrap on my stomach yet. I'm worried I won't be able to tell anything there either. This is getting to be depressing. I hope I have better news as time goes by.
The bra hurts so bad and I"m stinky. Wish I could take a bath or shower SO bad.
Back to my shows I go!
The pain is much better, now it's mostly just aches aches and tight muscles. Last night I had a bit of a scare because there was this really intense burning sensation in the inside of my left breast and it felt like my skin was ripping out of me. I took my temperature and kept an eye on the size to make sure it wasn't an infection. My nurse had given me a phone number for questions, so I tried calling it, but haven't heard anything back not even today.
I woke up every few minutes last night because of the ripping pain in my bowels. I FINALLY had a BM today, but it was really not easy and I'm still worried. I almost think that pain is worse than what I was experiencing after my surgery.
I'm trying to just use Tylenol today to see how that goes. So far so good. My friend took me home and now I'm doing everything on my own. It's weird realizing all the things you use your arms for, especially the reaching movement that I can't do. My cat keeps wanting to give me love and she is mostly getting in the way and I can't even swat her away.
I took a muscle relaxer with my second does of Tylenol today. I'm hoping it does something to the crazy disaster I have on my chest right now. It makes me freak out and wonder when I'll be able to go in public again. Good thing I'm alone because I have no desire to show these off at this point. I keep looking up on the internet to see if people generally go through this and I've found that most people hate them when they are first done. I'm just not sure I'm like most people. My incisions seem to be in weird noticeable places, and they are definitely uneven which was supposed to be fixed. As far as I can tell, she put the full 375 in each as opposed to a little less on the left side.
I still haven't taken off the wrap on my stomach yet. I'm worried I won't be able to tell anything there either. This is getting to be depressing. I hope I have better news as time goes by.
The bra hurts so bad and I"m stinky. Wish I could take a bath or shower SO bad.
Back to my shows I go!
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Plugged up
The pain is different now: my intestines feel like they are ripping out of my stomach!
I've taken stool softeners twice, fiber powder, two fiber bars, extra vitamin c and a huge black coffee and NOTHING is working.
I haven't had my pain rx since 8:30 this am and now that I would like to ease the discomfort I don't feel like I should because they are the reason I'm not able to go.
Didn't realize this would be one of the hard parts. I feel literally like I'm in labor, searing pain all throughout! I jus need to go! ):
Worried
They look so strange, nothin like I imagined. I may be over reacting now, but I'm already dreading having to have revision surgery. I just hope as time goes by they settle into a least something that looks like boobs.
I'm feeling much better today, but its still very uncomfortable. I still can't get out of bed without assistance. Walking is hard too, as my abdomen is still extremely sore from the lipo. I have lots of pressure points from the wrapping and also from the way I'm forced to sleep.
The rx is keeping me drowsy so I sleep a lot. It's also keeping me from having a BM which isn't good because I haven't gone since Thursday. I've taken a stool softener with a laxative but nothing has happened so far. I'm also really dehydrated even though I've been drinking.
Finally up and moving without dying of pain. I hope it keeps getting better. Our friends want us to come over for dinner tonight but I'm still not sure if I'm up to it. We'll see...
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Second day
The pain is still pretty bad. I'm highly medicated and yet am so uncomfortable. My friend has been helping to keep me on track with my rx and I've been starving so she keeps feeding me.
When I have a chance ill go over how my day went yesterday but I'm really tired still.
I keep looking down and seeing them. Everything I read about other people's experience is true, I really don't know how I feel about them now. They don't look big enough, even though my friend says she doesn't think I could go any bigger. I also feel like they are super far appart and not as projected as the ones I tried on.
I still haven't taken my bra or tight garments off yet. I'm scared. But I need to soon to check my incisions.
I can't wait until I can walk normal and not feel this pain!
Friday, March 30, 2012
Pain
The battle of life is, in most cases, fought uphill; and to win it without a struggle were perhaps to win it without honor. If there were no difficulties there would be no success; if there were nothing to struggle for, there would be nothing to be achieved. -Samuel Smiles
I'm in so much feakin pain.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Phone Call
It's official! The surgical coordinator called me today with my official time of surgery. I'm scheduled first thing as I asked (I get queezy if I don't eat) and have to be there at 6:30 am for my 8:00 am "going under" time. God bless my friend!
She reminded me to stop all eating and drinking after midnight tonight and also to make sure I wear something comfortable. I'm not worried, I bought this cute extra large purple zip up hoodie that's extremely soft and a pair of stretchy yoga pants just for the occasion! I'll look adorable, it's too bad I won't be awake most of tomorrow to notice LOL.
I did everything I needed to yesterday, thank god, and now I'm working on my to-do list today. It's so strange to think that in less than a day everything is going to be different! I really doubt I'll be getting much sleep from now until then...
When I went to weigh-in last night, I was down 2 pounds from last week. I'm thinking it's because I put myself on this strict diet for the last two weeks in order to be ready. It's good, because my weight has been a roller coaster since I started WW. I'm down a total of 12 pounds though, which is only 4.6 away from my target weight. If this procedure doesn't put on too much and I keep up my good eating, I should have that done by summer time. Yay for finally having a bikini worthy body!!!
It finally feels real...
She reminded me to stop all eating and drinking after midnight tonight and also to make sure I wear something comfortable. I'm not worried, I bought this cute extra large purple zip up hoodie that's extremely soft and a pair of stretchy yoga pants just for the occasion! I'll look adorable, it's too bad I won't be awake most of tomorrow to notice LOL.
I did everything I needed to yesterday, thank god, and now I'm working on my to-do list today. It's so strange to think that in less than a day everything is going to be different! I really doubt I'll be getting much sleep from now until then...
When I went to weigh-in last night, I was down 2 pounds from last week. I'm thinking it's because I put myself on this strict diet for the last two weeks in order to be ready. It's good, because my weight has been a roller coaster since I started WW. I'm down a total of 12 pounds though, which is only 4.6 away from my target weight. If this procedure doesn't put on too much and I keep up my good eating, I should have that done by summer time. Yay for finally having a bikini worthy body!!!
It finally feels real...
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Before?
I am 100% reminded why I am doing this surgery. What an eye opener. If I freak out at all on Friday, I better freakin remember how I feel right now.
I went to take before pictures of myself like I mentioned I was going to. OMG. I could barely look at them. Honestly, I have never really seen myself naked on a frozen still before. Thank GOD because I'd probably throw myself off a bridge. Sounds extreme, but trust: it's kinda what I was thinking.
Now, I realize that I always dress extremely fast when I get ready every day. If nothing else, I always have to have a shirt on or my bra to feel comfortable. I've always felt awkward but now I'm feeling something much stronger. First of all, I look like a little child. Plus they are extremely uneven and I've never really noticed how low down my nipples are positioned. I'm really not sure why I've ever felt sexy. NOT that my breasts and stomach are all there are to feeling hot, it's just that it's such a huge part of what you see.
Needless to say, I will not be posting the pictures like I thought I would. My doctor can have hers and I'm going to lock mine away for eternity. I may actually delete them all one day.
I am soooo excited now. Can't wait to take my afters. They better be worth alllll of the photos in the world (:
I went to take before pictures of myself like I mentioned I was going to. OMG. I could barely look at them. Honestly, I have never really seen myself naked on a frozen still before. Thank GOD because I'd probably throw myself off a bridge. Sounds extreme, but trust: it's kinda what I was thinking.
Now, I realize that I always dress extremely fast when I get ready every day. If nothing else, I always have to have a shirt on or my bra to feel comfortable. I've always felt awkward but now I'm feeling something much stronger. First of all, I look like a little child. Plus they are extremely uneven and I've never really noticed how low down my nipples are positioned. I'm really not sure why I've ever felt sexy. NOT that my breasts and stomach are all there are to feeling hot, it's just that it's such a huge part of what you see.
Needless to say, I will not be posting the pictures like I thought I would. My doctor can have hers and I'm going to lock mine away for eternity. I may actually delete them all one day.
I am soooo excited now. Can't wait to take my afters. They better be worth alllll of the photos in the world (:
Two more days
The anxiety has calmed a bit, but the drama continues. Every day something happens that get's my blood going to some extent and I can't help but long for this week to be over. The anticipation is almost killing me. I have no patience.
I've been trying to fight off exhaustion, sickness and additional panic attacks. My glands keep teasing me as if I'm about to get sick, and my face/body is covered in stress acne. I've been testy with the boy I nanny for in the mornings and when I get home I can't focus so I tend to waste my precious time. Even my bathroom schedule that is usually so on point has been way messed up. As much pain as I know I'll be in after Friday AM, I'm actually longing for the week of being forced to do nothing but sleep and sleep [and watch TV] and sleep.
I did all six loads of every piece of laundry that I could find last night, today I have to go food shopping and tomorrow I'm going to clean my apartment from top to bottom. I had the intention to cook a bunch of meals and freeze them but I think I'll just get simple food that can be microwaved instead. I'm still overwhelmed and don't know if I have the energy. I am going to dye my hair tonight still, simply because I know it'll need to be done within the next few weeks if I don't and I really don't want to pay to have my hairdresser do it.
Yesterday I had a nurse from the doctor's office call me and give me an oral health interview. She asked me all the questions I'd answered before, but it didn't bother me. She told me to start washing in an antibacterial body wash and I told her I had started that already. I thought it was strange that she told me I have to remove my piercings because supposedly something they use while I'm under could cause any metal in me to burn my skin. I'm hoping that my nose ring doesn't close up but I'm going to attempt to use my plastic insert that I've used waitressing and hopefully that will do.
The schedule/to-do-list that I put myself on has been working well, keeping me reminded of all the things I can and cannot do. The vitamins that I've been on for about a week and a half have been pretty simple to remember, I just take them with my meals. It's the Arnica that I'm supposed to take 3-4 times a day now that I keep forgetting. I can't take it with meals so I have to remember independently and it's been difficult. I recommend that if you're able to do it like I did, take everything you read/get from your doctor [or other sources that you trust] and everything you need to remember and put it in one place so you can constantly be looking at it. (I made a calendar and wrote out each point to remember for the two weeks before and two weeks afterwards.) That was most helpful when I went to WalMart on Monday and got all of the before and after care products I need to have handy.
I haven't been to the gym in a week or so and I'm used to going 3+ times a week. I think in my head I realize that I have to quit for about a month soon anyway so I don't have any motivation. But I really wanted to tan so I think I'm going to go today. I'm not sure I can do that either afterwards because of all my incisions.Tonight would be my last weigh-in at WW but I'm also not really feeling going all the way up for that either. It would be nice to know my final weight before I add and subtract haha. Who knows, maybe I'll come out even!
Today my goal is to take some "before" pictures in a bathing suit that I feel has the chance to semi fit me after the surgery and post some shots here. (Headless of course, wink wink). It's the strangest concept that what I see when I'm naked in the mirror right now is NEVER going to be seen again. Not that I mind, but it's still the only thing I've known so it's a little sad in a way. I get nostalgic over the silliest things...
42 hours and counting...
I've been trying to fight off exhaustion, sickness and additional panic attacks. My glands keep teasing me as if I'm about to get sick, and my face/body is covered in stress acne. I've been testy with the boy I nanny for in the mornings and when I get home I can't focus so I tend to waste my precious time. Even my bathroom schedule that is usually so on point has been way messed up. As much pain as I know I'll be in after Friday AM, I'm actually longing for the week of being forced to do nothing but sleep and sleep [and watch TV] and sleep.
I did all six loads of every piece of laundry that I could find last night, today I have to go food shopping and tomorrow I'm going to clean my apartment from top to bottom. I had the intention to cook a bunch of meals and freeze them but I think I'll just get simple food that can be microwaved instead. I'm still overwhelmed and don't know if I have the energy. I am going to dye my hair tonight still, simply because I know it'll need to be done within the next few weeks if I don't and I really don't want to pay to have my hairdresser do it.
Yesterday I had a nurse from the doctor's office call me and give me an oral health interview. She asked me all the questions I'd answered before, but it didn't bother me. She told me to start washing in an antibacterial body wash and I told her I had started that already. I thought it was strange that she told me I have to remove my piercings because supposedly something they use while I'm under could cause any metal in me to burn my skin. I'm hoping that my nose ring doesn't close up but I'm going to attempt to use my plastic insert that I've used waitressing and hopefully that will do.
The schedule/to-do-list that I put myself on has been working well, keeping me reminded of all the things I can and cannot do. The vitamins that I've been on for about a week and a half have been pretty simple to remember, I just take them with my meals. It's the Arnica that I'm supposed to take 3-4 times a day now that I keep forgetting. I can't take it with meals so I have to remember independently and it's been difficult. I recommend that if you're able to do it like I did, take everything you read/get from your doctor [or other sources that you trust] and everything you need to remember and put it in one place so you can constantly be looking at it. (I made a calendar and wrote out each point to remember for the two weeks before and two weeks afterwards.) That was most helpful when I went to WalMart on Monday and got all of the before and after care products I need to have handy.
I haven't been to the gym in a week or so and I'm used to going 3+ times a week. I think in my head I realize that I have to quit for about a month soon anyway so I don't have any motivation. But I really wanted to tan so I think I'm going to go today. I'm not sure I can do that either afterwards because of all my incisions.Tonight would be my last weigh-in at WW but I'm also not really feeling going all the way up for that either. It would be nice to know my final weight before I add and subtract haha. Who knows, maybe I'll come out even!
Today my goal is to take some "before" pictures in a bathing suit that I feel has the chance to semi fit me after the surgery and post some shots here. (Headless of course, wink wink). It's the strangest concept that what I see when I'm naked in the mirror right now is NEVER going to be seen again. Not that I mind, but it's still the only thing I've known so it's a little sad in a way. I get nostalgic over the silliest things...
42 hours and counting...
Monday, March 26, 2012
Anxiety
I'm a basket of nerves.
It's almost like I woke up this AM and it hit me. Hard. No, not the fact that it's happening. I'm not even nervous about the results. It's more like I'm just not sure...and that's it.
Now I know why everyone writes about taking a Valium before they go.
I dealt with personal bullsh*t over the weekend and I feel like it propelled the anxious feelings into full effect. I had been doing so well. People would ask me how I felt and I would answer that I was excited and ready. Now I can barely breathe. Paper bag anyone?
If I had any advice at this moment, it would definitely be to take the week before to not only prepare but also clear your head. I can't imagine taking this feeling into surgery on Friday and knowing that makes it even worse.
My friend who is taking care of me right after (I have to have someone with me at least the full 24 hours after) told me she's worried I'll freak out afterwards. I was so convinced that she was crazy, but now I'm wondering. Will all these emotions come puking up in her face? She's not going to know how to handle me. It's already such a big deal that she's going to be there for me afterwards, I can't bare the thought of putting that pressure on her.
It's at the point now that I feel the need to cause a meltdown...cry my eyes out, throw things, yell and scream, whatever it would take to release the pressure that's building inside me. It's relentless.It's almost like I woke up this AM and it hit me. Hard. No, not the fact that it's happening. I'm not even nervous about the results. It's more like I'm just not sure...and that's it.
Now I know why everyone writes about taking a Valium before they go.
I dealt with personal bullsh*t over the weekend and I feel like it propelled the anxious feelings into full effect. I had been doing so well. People would ask me how I felt and I would answer that I was excited and ready. Now I can barely breathe. Paper bag anyone?
If I had any advice at this moment, it would definitely be to take the week before to not only prepare but also clear your head. I can't imagine taking this feeling into surgery on Friday and knowing that makes it even worse.
My friend who is taking care of me right after (I have to have someone with me at least the full 24 hours after) told me she's worried I'll freak out afterwards. I was so convinced that she was crazy, but now I'm wondering. Will all these emotions come puking up in her face? She's not going to know how to handle me. It's already such a big deal that she's going to be there for me afterwards, I can't bare the thought of putting that pressure on her.
This is supposed to be the part where I skip around with joy and take short breaths of excitement every time I think about what's about to happen. Something I've been waiting for so long. I'm not sure how I allowed my personal drama to get like this right before one of the biggest days of my life. Now I have no idea where my anxiety is stemming from. Does everyone feel like this right before or is it just me?
I'm angry with the pit of my stomach right now. It needs to shape up.
Alright, seriously, where is that paper bag???
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Changes and Preparations
I'm working 24/7 to get everything ready for next week. It's a lot more difficult than I thought it would be. There are sooo many things to get in order considering the fact that I won't have the chance to do much of anything for about a month after.
I've made myself a very detailed calendar with everything that I need to do everyday. They have me on a bunch of herbs and vitamins that I have to take everyday so it's helping keep me on track. I don't want to forget anything so this can go as smooth as possible.
When I was at my final consultation last week, I decided to do something a little bit drastic: I added Lipo of my abdomen to the "to do list".
I've always wanted to do it, and was planning on just doing it down the road. But after talking to my doctor and also going over the finances, it just makes way more sense to do it at the same time. It will save me a crap load of money and then I only have to do the recovery time once.
Don't get worried, it's not a new addiction. It just needs to be done. Even my doctor said it was a must, because it's only a little but it will make a huge improvement and along with the BA it will make everything come together fantastic.
So now, on top of all the other things I need to get ready, I also need to be mentally prepared to wear a binding garment for 4-6 weeks and REALLY limiting my activity...
I've made myself a very detailed calendar with everything that I need to do everyday. They have me on a bunch of herbs and vitamins that I have to take everyday so it's helping keep me on track. I don't want to forget anything so this can go as smooth as possible.
When I was at my final consultation last week, I decided to do something a little bit drastic: I added Lipo of my abdomen to the "to do list".
I've always wanted to do it, and was planning on just doing it down the road. But after talking to my doctor and also going over the finances, it just makes way more sense to do it at the same time. It will save me a crap load of money and then I only have to do the recovery time once.
Don't get worried, it's not a new addiction. It just needs to be done. Even my doctor said it was a must, because it's only a little but it will make a huge improvement and along with the BA it will make everything come together fantastic.
So now, on top of all the other things I need to get ready, I also need to be mentally prepared to wear a binding garment for 4-6 weeks and REALLY limiting my activity...
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Bloodwork
I thought I was brilliant. Think again.
Part of the packet that the doctor's assistant sent me included a script for a basic cbc. I guess they want to make sure I'm healthy, not pregnant, that sort of thing. The only problem is I don't have insurance so I wasn't sure how to go about doing it. My good friend told me to budget about 800 dollars. Ouch.
Ok, I got to thinking and this is what came to my mind. For reasons that I care not to go into, because they are long and boring and quite maddening, I need to get new life insurance. Part of getting a new policy includes getting blood work done. When I talked to my boss, I asked what was done during the blood work. He said it was nothing more than just a basic cbc. Perfect. Let the insurance company pay for it.
Or not. When I got the results yesterday, I noticed that they look different from previous lab work I had done. I faxed it to the nurse and confirmed that yes, it was true: it was a no go. NOT a CBC.
So now I am a week before my surgery, and needing my blood work done asap. Currently I am sitting in the hospital waiting for a nurse to come in draw my blood. Again.
I hate needles. I hate spending money.
This coming event is definitely bringing light to the words "beauty is pain"...
Friday, March 9, 2012
Bed
I'm laying in my bed contemplating all of the millions of things I still have to do before the big day that's fast approaching...
I keep putting on my to-do list that I need to get a solid plan down on paper but it keeps getting put off. It's really not very smart of me to do so any longer. Especially since my final consult is in less than a week and I need to be prepared with every last question imaginable so I'm all set.
Now I can't sleep, even though I really need to. Imagining the idea, or rather very near reality, of trying to sleep for a month propped up halfway isn't helping either. Oh the joys of a breast augmentation! I can only tell myself this will all be worth it very soon...
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Free to drink, YAY!
I spoke with my doctor's nurse today. I was so worried when I got the packet that the patient coordinator sent me (more on that later) and read that I have to stop drinking alcohol for two weeks before the surgery.
Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not an alcoholic by any means. However, this month there are two weekends that had me concerned: St. Patrick's Day and my girl's sister's birthday.
I am all about having to be the DD if necessary. But I really didn't want to be...so imagine my relief when the nurse told me that the rule isn't really a rule...it's more of a guideline. Phew! Good to know.
Of course, she did warn me not to go crazy and especially not the night before. I was thinking that was a little obvious...would a chick really think about getting hammered the night before a big surgery? Especially when you have to fast EVERYTHING including liquids for the 12 hours before you go under? I guess you never know with some people!
I'm just glad I can raise a toast...even if it will only be a little one! (:
Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not an alcoholic by any means. However, this month there are two weekends that had me concerned: St. Patrick's Day and my girl's sister's birthday.
I am all about having to be the DD if necessary. But I really didn't want to be...so imagine my relief when the nurse told me that the rule isn't really a rule...it's more of a guideline. Phew! Good to know.
Of course, she did warn me not to go crazy and especially not the night before. I was thinking that was a little obvious...would a chick really think about getting hammered the night before a big surgery? Especially when you have to fast EVERYTHING including liquids for the 12 hours before you go under? I guess you never know with some people!
I'm just glad I can raise a toast...even if it will only be a little one! (:
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Example pictures of the ideal breast size and shape
My doctor and multiple websites say to chose pictures of what you want to look like ideally...So I decided to post a few here. What do you think?
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Best after surgery advice ever!
After Breast Augmentation Surgery
- Make sure you have someone to carry you home after surgery, and stay with you for at least the first 24 hours, preferably the first 48 hours. This is VERY important.
- Have reasonable expectations regarding the outcome of your surgery.
- Buy a few larger bras (preferably the cup-size you'd like to be after your surgery, but NOT padded bras), pad them, and wear them under your clothes. This will help you get used to your new size. Most women wish they had gone bigger, and by "trying the size on", you will realize how quickly you get used to having larger breasts. See the Size page.
- Drink a lot of water in the days prior to your surgery. This may help ward off nausea after your surgery (which is usually due to anesthesia).
- Eat something when you take your pain meds. Sometimes, a few crackers don't do the trick. Eat a piece of plain, white bread, or a piece of toast, or 1/2 or a whole peanut butter sandwich. Pain meds can upset the stomach. Eating usually helps ward off any potential nausea.
- You will want to practice sleeping on your back and/or propped up on pillows, because you will be sleeping like this for a few days (at least) after your surgery.
- Make sure you tell your surgeon about any and all medications (including, but not limited to, heart medication, blood pressure medication, insulin, antidepressants, etc.), vitamins, and herbal or homeopathic remedies you are taking.
- Stop taking aspiring, aspirin-containing meds/products, ibuprofen, and all vitamins and herbs for at LEAST 2 weeks prior to your surgery. Some surgeons recommend not taking them for 30 days prior to surgery, so definitely check with your surgeon regarding the types of medications you need to avoid. Many types of vitamins, herbs, and meds will cause the blood to thin, which is why you do not need to take anything w/o your surgeon's approval.
- Ask your surgeon if it's okay for your to take Bromelain, and Arnica Montana, for bruising and swelling. You should not take these for more than 10 days. Ask your surgeon about this PRIOR to surgery, and only take it with his or her approval.
- Do not drink alcoholic beverages for at least 24 hours pre-op. (My note: my doctor said to stop two full weeks ahead of time, so that's what I'm going to be doing!)
- Make sure you remove ALL jewelry/piercings prior to surgery.
- If your period is due around the time of your scheduled surgery date, make sure you let your surgeon know. Some surgeons do not like operating if the patient is on her period. Others don't mind. Also, some surgeons prefer you to wear a pad, versus a tampon, so make sure you ask about these things.
- Wear loose-fitting clothes to surgery. A button or zip-up top is preferable, with pull-on pants, and slip-on shoes/sneakers.
- If you smoke, you need to quit for 4-6 weeks prior to surgery. If you cannot quit, cut back as much as you possibly can. This is ESPECIALLY true is you are having a breast lift. Smoking reduces the oxygen levels in the blood, which will inhibit healing. In patients having breast lifts, this COULD lead to necrosis (tissue death). So do your best to stop smoking prior to your surgery.
- Do abdominal exercises to help strengthen those muscles. You will be using them a lot after surgery, so the stronger they are, the better.
- Have easy-to-wear clothes ready. You will be wearing button-up shirts for a week or so (possibly longer), so have these, and pull-on pants ready so that you don't have to search for them after the surgery.
- Make sure you have your surgeons phone number, as well as emergency/after-hours number by your phone(s).
- Clean your house and do all the laundry a day or two before your surgery, so that you don't have to worry about it for several days after surgery.
- Have clean sheets and pillow cases on your bed. You won't feel like doing this for at least a week.
- Make up your sofa with sheets, blankets, and pillows.
- Take your trash out the morning of your surgery.
- Do all of your grocery shopping is done. Buy enough to last for 2 weeks or so.
- Buy 4 bags of frozen fruit (not vegetables, cause they don't smell very good when they start thawing) to use for swelling. You may opt to put these bags in large freezer (ziplock) bags, to keep the moisture off of you. Two of these bags can be kept in the freezer, while you are using the other two. Another variable to this would be to put crushed ice in a ziplock back. This is easy if you have an icemaker in your refrigerator. You may also purchase reusable icepacks from the drug store.
- Buy simple, light foods at the grocery store, such as crackers, puddings, jello, soups, applesauce, etc., in case you don't have much of an appetite. Ensure or Boost (which are nutritional drinks) will give you the vitamins and nutrients your body needs if you don't feel like eating anything.
- Have a heating pad handy for your back, as it may get sore due to your sleeping positions early post-op. Do NOT put a heating pad on your breasts. They will most likely be numb, and you could inadvertently burn yourself.
- Cook some meals ahead of time, and freeze them. Some examples are soups, chili, spaghetti sauce, etc. These can be put in the microwave later.
- If your surgeon will give you your prescriptions prior to surgery, go ahead and get them filled.
- Ask your surgeon if he will prescribe anti-nausea medication. You may also want to ask if he prescribes Valium (or something equivalent) to take the night or morning of surgery, which will help you relax.
- If you don't get your prescriptions until after the surgery, get them filled at the hospital pharmacy. If you have an insurance/pharmacy card, don't forget to take it with your on the day of your surgery.
- Use a pill-organizer box so that you can make sure you take all of your meds when you are supposed to. If you don't want to use a pillbox, write down how much medication you take, and when you take it.
- Make sure all of your bills are paid, so that you don't have to worry about that during the first week or two post-op. Also, take care of all of your banking, etc.
- Have a good supply of magazines, books, and videos, since you won't feel like doing much of anything for the first few days/week following surgery. Comedies are not recommended, especially if you have implants placed under the muscle, because they make you laugh, which causes your pectoral muscles to tighten/contract.
- On the day of your surgery, reiterate to your surgeon what you want/have discussed, such as the type of implant, size, etc.
- Make sure your vehicle has a full tank of gas.
- Have your cordless phone charged, and new batteries in your remote controls.
- Have common bathroom toiletries, such as toothpaste, toothbrush, contact lenses, mouthwash, make-up, hairspray, brushes/combs, etc., laid out on the bathroom counter/sink.
- Make sure you have a coffee can, or other container with a lid, in the car for the ride home, in case you throw up on the way home.
- Take a pillow with you for the ride home, for added comfort.
- Have water, Ginger Ale, or Coke on the way home, in case you want to "sip on" something.
- Have everything you need beside your bed/sofa/recliner. Examples are: remote controls, phone, magazines/books, water bottle, medications, etc. A trash can will also be needed, in case you need to vomit.
- Take a shower, wash your hair, and shave the morning prior to surgery. If you are getting the transax incision, please take your time shaving. You don't want to cut yourself, as this could introduce bacteria, which could ultimately lead to an infection.
- Put your toilet paper on the floor, in case you don't feel like reaching for it.
- You may want to refrain from wearing underwear, as that's one less thing you'll have to pull up after using the bathroom and/or taking a shower.
- Purchase Shea's Butter cream lotion, or the lotion of your choice, to use on your breasts. (My personal favorite is Nivea lotion for extra dry skin.) Your skin may get dry due to stretching. If you get the nipple or crease incision, take good care not to get any lotion on your incision until it is completely closed.
- Have new bottles of shampoo and conditioner. If you don't, turn the shampoo and conditioner bottles upside down, so that you won't have to squeeze them.
- If you have pets, you should have their favorite treats on hand. This will keep them happy when they want attention and you aren't up to giving it.
- Make sure you have taken care of cleaning the litter box, purchasing pet food, giving heartworm meds, etc., prior to surgery.
- If your dog(s) require walking, you will need to make arrangements for someone to do that for you for at least a week or two, depending on the size of the dog.
- Walk through your house with your elbows held close to your sides. This will give you an idea of how you'll feel for the first few days after surgery. Anything you cannot reach, you will need to get down so that you CAN reach it. Examples are snacks, dishes, etc.
- Purchase paper plates, cups, etc., so that you can cut down on dishes.
- Make sure you do not wear fingernail polish (on hands or feet) when you have surgery. Oxygen levels are sometimes monitored just by looking at the color of the nail bed. If it's blue in color, this means that you aren't getting enough oxygen. It's very important not to wear polish.
- Do not wear makeup to surgery.
- Wear cotton underwear to surgery. Your surgeon may allow you to keep your panties on during surgery, but some surgeons won't, unless they're 100% cotton. Best to be safe than sorry, if wearing no underwear bothers you.
- Have bottle caps loosened, so they're easy to open.
- Have a backscratcher handy, in case your back itches. It's also helpful for reaching things.
- Make sure you have snacks handy by your bed/sofa/recliner, when you are alone, or late at night. Crackers, chips, pudding, drink, etc.
- If you have a helper, you may want to invest in a whistle. Bells may not be heard.
- If you're planning on using something to treat your incisions, such as vitamin E, silicone sheeting, etc., have this ready prior to surgery.
- Keep a journal. Write down how you're doing from day to day, what aches and pains you're experiencing, swelling amounts, etc. This is really good to help track your progress, and is also good when you see your doctor. You won't forget to mention the "little" things that you might otherwise forget.
- If you have long hair, you may want to wear it in a ponytail, or braid/french braid it for a few days after surgery. It will be easier to manage like that.
- Take after photos, including front, side, and oblique shots. This will help you to track your progress. You will most likely be looking at your new breasts often, which makes it hard to notice the small changes that take place daily. Take photos of yourself in the same clothes you took your before pics in. You can then compare the before and after clothed pics, as well as the before and after topless pics. Taking photos on a weekly basis is sufficient.
- If you have problems with itching, you may want to put lotion on your breasts (being careful to avoid the incisions). Putting ice packs on may help as well. Seems a temperature change helps sometimes. Itching is usually due to the skin stretching.
- Purchasing canned drinks will help, so that you don't have to lift 2 liter drinks. You may do the same with milk, etc. Have straws handy as well.
- Your surgeon will most likely mark you prior to surgery. These blue markings can be removed with rubbing alcohol, or fingernail polish remover. Make SURE you do not get this on your incisions.
- Constipation is common after surgery. Pain meds often cause it. Have a mild laxative on hand, such as Correctol, FiberCon, or Metamucil, just in case. Continue drinking lots of water, as this will help move things along as well. It's also great for your skin!
- You will most likely have swelling after your surgery. Do NOT take a diuretic, unless your surgeon has approved it. Drinking lots of water and moving around a bit will help the swelling dissipate.
- If you have nausea, you can take the anti-nausea meds your surgeon prescribes. If you don't get any nausea meds, or if you run out, you can try ginger, or peppermint, both of which are supposed to help with nausea. Taking a quick sniff of rubbing alcohol has also been known to help nausea.
- Shaving your underarms may be difficult at first. Use a hair remover like Nair or Neet until you are able to shave again. Alternatively, you may opt to have them waxed.
- Keep a positive attitude.
- Don't slouch. Walk with your shoulders held back. This will save you some back pain. Slouching only aggravates the situation.
- Make certain that you know the signs of infection, which include (but are not limited to) fever (especially over 101), pus, redness, inflammation, breasts that are hot-to-the-touch, excessive swelling, and flu-like symptoms. Call your doctor immediately if you have any of these symptoms. Infections can be very serious, so know the signs.
- Have natural (not synthetic) vitamin E on hand to start taking after surgery. Vitamin E may help prevent capsule contracture. There is no evidence of this, but it doesn't hurt to use it. HOWEVER, you must wait until you are at least 2 weeks post-op before starting it, because it thins the blood.
- Do not take aspirin, garlic supplements, or ibuprofen for at least 2 weeks after your surgery, as they thin the blood also. Talk with your doctor before taking ANY over-the-counter drug, or vitamin/herbal remedy/supplement.
- Get a lot of rest. Even if you feel you are having an easy recovery, it is important to remember that your body has been through a lot, and it will take a while for you to heal on the inside. The body needs energy to promote good healing, so rest as much as you can. Don't push yourself to do too much too soon.
- Make sure you get your device cards from your surgeon.
- If your caretaker does not get a list of written instructions from your surgeon after your surgery, be sure to tell that person to write down what the surgeon says. It's very important for you to follow your surgeon's post-op instructions.
- Your menstrual cycle may be thrown off a bit after surgery. So be prepared for that. However, if you feel as if something isn't right, or if you aren't comfortable with it, call your gynecologist. If nothing else, it will put your mind at ease.
- You may experience mood swings after your surgery. This is normal. General anesthesia, along with pain meds and lack of sleep, can cause this to happen. This will pass, and again, is normal.
- Your nipples may be very sensitive after your surgery. You can try numbing creams, nursing pads, and silky camisoles, if your nipples are overly sensitive after surgery.
- You will be the most uncomfortable during the first 3 days. After that, things will start looking up. It's common to experience more soreness in the morning. However, once you get up, and start moving around, those muscles loosen up a bit, and you'll feel much better.
- Do NOT submerge your incision in a tub bath until it is completely closed. Doing so can introduce bacteria/infection. You may take tub baths, as long as you don't do this. Taking showers and allowing the water to beat down on your chest will help the muscles relax. Make sure the water isn't too hot.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Scheduled and Progress
Yesterday I put my big girl pants on and scheduled my breast augmentation.
I decided to go with Dr. DeChiara, and I chose March 30th, a Friday, as my surgery day. The scheduling coordinator was really cool, and told me that I would be sent a packet about four weeks before to go over everything that I needed to do and have ready before the big day. I also scheduled another consult for two weeks before the surgery to make sure I finalized everything.
I am pretty sure I am going to have the Dr. put a 400 cc implant on my right side and a 375 cc implant on my left. I also decided to chose silicone for my implant type. It's were my heart and my gut were leading me and I'm sure I'll be happy with my decision. There were just too many more positives to them that outweighed the extra cost. I'm also not concerned with the safety issues like I once was. Call me crazy, but it's how I feel.
Now I'm going to concentrate on saving money and continuing to get in shape. With Weight Watchers I've already lost almost 7 lbs in six weeks and by the time I go under the knife I'm hoping to be back to where I'm more comfortable with my weight. (And buttoning the top button of my pants again!)
There's little things to work out still, such as transportation and whatnot, but I'm really glad it's finally in the books. My timeline is going pretty well so far, so my fingers are crossed that it continues to be that way!
Here's to hoping!
I decided to go with Dr. DeChiara, and I chose March 30th, a Friday, as my surgery day. The scheduling coordinator was really cool, and told me that I would be sent a packet about four weeks before to go over everything that I needed to do and have ready before the big day. I also scheduled another consult for two weeks before the surgery to make sure I finalized everything.
I am pretty sure I am going to have the Dr. put a 400 cc implant on my right side and a 375 cc implant on my left. I also decided to chose silicone for my implant type. It's were my heart and my gut were leading me and I'm sure I'll be happy with my decision. There were just too many more positives to them that outweighed the extra cost. I'm also not concerned with the safety issues like I once was. Call me crazy, but it's how I feel.
Now I'm going to concentrate on saving money and continuing to get in shape. With Weight Watchers I've already lost almost 7 lbs in six weeks and by the time I go under the knife I'm hoping to be back to where I'm more comfortable with my weight. (And buttoning the top button of my pants again!)
There's little things to work out still, such as transportation and whatnot, but I'm really glad it's finally in the books. My timeline is going pretty well so far, so my fingers are crossed that it continues to be that way!
Here's to hoping!
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Stats on Dr. DeChiara
Here is the breakdown of what would happen if I go with Dr. DeChiara:
I have a choice of saline or silicon, she doesn't have a preference. Her own were saline, but that we before the silicone was legal, and she's very happy with hers. The brand she uses is Mentor and they have a limited warranty for life that will replace them for free, and there is an additional insurance I could purchase (For roughly $100 the nurse said). She said getting future MRI's to check for breakage is not popular anymore. Any revisions during the first year may require another surgeons' fee. She didn't mention anything about cost for complications.
She has been doing breast and other cosmetic surgery for over 10 years now. She does them in the attached hospital in one of four cosmetic surgery only suites. There would be an FEMALE anesthesiologist, the Dr. herself, her nurse (my friend!) and a surgical tech in the room.
The surgery is done with general anesthesia. While in, they give an IV of antibiotics and then prescribe them afterwards along with heavy pain medication (Percocet). She told me she could get me something stronger if that was necessary because I told her I have a low sensitivity to pain meds. Because I am young and healthy she told me it wasn't necessary to go off my medications, though she did say that I needed to be careful on the actual antibiotics because some aren't effective while talking them. The incision can be however I chose, and she said that the idea of infection under the arm wasn't anything to be worried about. She places them under the muscle. They use dissolvable stitches and two small strips of surgical tape around the incision.
The procedure takes two hours total prep and surgery time, and afterwards I'm required to stay a few hours for monitoring. They'll make sure my pain meds are working and that I'm safe to leave. I have to be there 1 1/2 hours early. She only does BA's on Tuesdays and Fridays.
We didn't discuss aftercare. (I figured that I know enough now that I'll decide after I book). The after-care and post op visits are included in his fee, and they see you right after the surgery, 2-3 days later and then in 3 months, 6 months, and once a year. Sleeping was recommended to do sitting up for the first couple of days to keep from straining muscles used to maneuver.
The Dr. suggested that I give myself at least four days to do absolutely nothing so that I recover well. She said that it is extremely painful (contrary to other's) and I'll want to be comfortable. I will be able to shower the next day.
A deposit of $500 is suggested for booking my surgery, but she said not required.
Exact fee breakdown:
Saline:
Dr. Fee: $3900
Implants: $750
Facility/Anesthesia: $2625
TOTAL: $7275
*not including FAF discount
Silicone:
Dr. Fee: $3900
Implants: $1600
Facility/Anesthesia: $2625
TOTAL: $8125
*not including FAF discount
I have a choice of saline or silicon, she doesn't have a preference. Her own were saline, but that we before the silicone was legal, and she's very happy with hers. The brand she uses is Mentor and they have a limited warranty for life that will replace them for free, and there is an additional insurance I could purchase (For roughly $100 the nurse said). She said getting future MRI's to check for breakage is not popular anymore. Any revisions during the first year may require another surgeons' fee. She didn't mention anything about cost for complications.
She has been doing breast and other cosmetic surgery for over 10 years now. She does them in the attached hospital in one of four cosmetic surgery only suites. There would be an FEMALE anesthesiologist, the Dr. herself, her nurse (my friend!) and a surgical tech in the room.
The surgery is done with general anesthesia. While in, they give an IV of antibiotics and then prescribe them afterwards along with heavy pain medication (Percocet). She told me she could get me something stronger if that was necessary because I told her I have a low sensitivity to pain meds. Because I am young and healthy she told me it wasn't necessary to go off my medications, though she did say that I needed to be careful on the actual antibiotics because some aren't effective while talking them. The incision can be however I chose, and she said that the idea of infection under the arm wasn't anything to be worried about. She places them under the muscle. They use dissolvable stitches and two small strips of surgical tape around the incision.
The procedure takes two hours total prep and surgery time, and afterwards I'm required to stay a few hours for monitoring. They'll make sure my pain meds are working and that I'm safe to leave. I have to be there 1 1/2 hours early. She only does BA's on Tuesdays and Fridays.
We didn't discuss aftercare. (I figured that I know enough now that I'll decide after I book). The after-care and post op visits are included in his fee, and they see you right after the surgery, 2-3 days later and then in 3 months, 6 months, and once a year. Sleeping was recommended to do sitting up for the first couple of days to keep from straining muscles used to maneuver.
The Dr. suggested that I give myself at least four days to do absolutely nothing so that I recover well. She said that it is extremely painful (contrary to other's) and I'll want to be comfortable. I will be able to shower the next day.
A deposit of $500 is suggested for booking my surgery, but she said not required.
Exact fee breakdown:
Saline:
Dr. Fee: $3900
Implants: $750
Facility/Anesthesia: $2625
TOTAL: $7275
*not including FAF discount
Silicone:
Dr. Fee: $3900
Implants: $1600
Facility/Anesthesia: $2625
TOTAL: $8125
*not including FAF discount
Last consultation!
I went to my last consult last week, and I have to say it turned out really well. The office was down in Mt. Kisco, which is about an hour south from me. I was hesitant to actually go, because of the long drive and the fact that I was really into the last doctor. Plus, the consult was going to cost me money and I want to save every penny for the actual surgery.
But, I made myself go. Mostly because I realized that I get taken for a ride when there are bright lights and fancy words and I didn't want to let Dr. Fiorillo's office do that to me. I really liked him, but I wanted the last and final opinion. Plus my friend was going to be waiting for me there and I didn't want to be a jerk.
I got a little lost, so when I arrived I was late. But the lady at the desk was friendly and I filled out my paperwork and waited until the doctor was ready. Her name is Dr. Sharon DeChiara, and I love the fact that she's female. (I have a thing against male doctors that I have no idea where it came from but is there nonetheless).
First I talked to the nurse, who was actually a little off-putting. She wasn't very friendly or warm and I wasn't really comfortable with her, especially when I had to get naked. She asked me a few questions and then gave me implants to try on. This time I was asked to use my own bra, which was a little strange to me considering I don't want to be the same size that I am now and I also wear bra's with a lot of padding so it wouldn't be realistic. She also had me put my shirt on over them, and once again I was in love with how I looked. I know for certain I'm going to be super happy once this is done. While with her, my friend came in to say hi, all scrubbed up. It was nice to see a friendly face. I love the fact that she'd be in the room during my surgery, as that makes me more comfortable.
After that the doctor came in. She was incredibly sweet and sat really close, talking right into my eyes. She didn't have too many strong opinions as far as incision or implant type, but did recommend that I do what's called "high profile" implants as opposed to the other type that tends to have more volume in the sides. That was the first time a doctor has even mentioned that to me. She also took measurements of my chest area and remarked that I have one nipple that is lower than the other. GREAT. Since I'm not having the incision there, that's not something that is going to change and she wanted me to be aware. Funny, I've stared at my chest a million times and never noticed before. Now I'll never forget!
I told her I was having a hard time deciding between saline and silicone. She wasn't much help because she told me that in her opinion they are both very safe and it's personal preference. Because I want them to be more tear-dropped and natural feeling she thought I'd probably prefer silicone. Also, she said they never leak even if ruptured because they are made as a "gummy bear" substance now and so they just stay in place. But the actual shell is thicker than saline so it's harder to pop, and also the makeup in general keeps it from having a rippling effect under the skin. She said I have enough tissue to make them both feel natural enough (WHERE?), and since she insists on going under the muscle (which I want anyway), she wasn't too worried about feel. Over all she said I was a perfect candidate for the surgery.
She had me try on the implant "sizers" again so that she could personally see them. The nurse had given me 200 and 300 cc to try, and I wouldn't even touch the 200. The 300 looked nice, but I wasn't sure because once again I was using my own bra and it felt deceiving. Dr. DeChiara brought in a zero padding almost-bandaid-looking bra that was a little to big but had a pocket for the implants so that I could have them right up against me without the added bra effect. She told me she thought the idea of 350-375 would be best for me and we all liked the look. In surgery she puts in what she called sizers that aren't actually implants first to see what looks best before actual insertion. I like that, also noting that she sits the patient up to get a "gravity look" before she finishes. After the fact I'm beginning to lean towards silicone and as far as size I'm definitely doing 375 and may just go to 400 for the heck of it. Especially since the difference is only three tablespoons of the liquid anyway.
After the doctor, I talked to the nurse to get my final questions asked and also a woman who does the billing. I was approved for a friends and family discount which was awesome news and all the answers where satisfactory.
Now I'll I have to do is finalize my date, type and do a little research on the anesthesiologist. My gut is leaning towards her though...and I need to schedule soon. Hope I make the best choice!!!
But, I made myself go. Mostly because I realized that I get taken for a ride when there are bright lights and fancy words and I didn't want to let Dr. Fiorillo's office do that to me. I really liked him, but I wanted the last and final opinion. Plus my friend was going to be waiting for me there and I didn't want to be a jerk.
I got a little lost, so when I arrived I was late. But the lady at the desk was friendly and I filled out my paperwork and waited until the doctor was ready. Her name is Dr. Sharon DeChiara, and I love the fact that she's female. (I have a thing against male doctors that I have no idea where it came from but is there nonetheless).
First I talked to the nurse, who was actually a little off-putting. She wasn't very friendly or warm and I wasn't really comfortable with her, especially when I had to get naked. She asked me a few questions and then gave me implants to try on. This time I was asked to use my own bra, which was a little strange to me considering I don't want to be the same size that I am now and I also wear bra's with a lot of padding so it wouldn't be realistic. She also had me put my shirt on over them, and once again I was in love with how I looked. I know for certain I'm going to be super happy once this is done. While with her, my friend came in to say hi, all scrubbed up. It was nice to see a friendly face. I love the fact that she'd be in the room during my surgery, as that makes me more comfortable.
After that the doctor came in. She was incredibly sweet and sat really close, talking right into my eyes. She didn't have too many strong opinions as far as incision or implant type, but did recommend that I do what's called "high profile" implants as opposed to the other type that tends to have more volume in the sides. That was the first time a doctor has even mentioned that to me. She also took measurements of my chest area and remarked that I have one nipple that is lower than the other. GREAT. Since I'm not having the incision there, that's not something that is going to change and she wanted me to be aware. Funny, I've stared at my chest a million times and never noticed before. Now I'll never forget!
I told her I was having a hard time deciding between saline and silicone. She wasn't much help because she told me that in her opinion they are both very safe and it's personal preference. Because I want them to be more tear-dropped and natural feeling she thought I'd probably prefer silicone. Also, she said they never leak even if ruptured because they are made as a "gummy bear" substance now and so they just stay in place. But the actual shell is thicker than saline so it's harder to pop, and also the makeup in general keeps it from having a rippling effect under the skin. She said I have enough tissue to make them both feel natural enough (WHERE?), and since she insists on going under the muscle (which I want anyway), she wasn't too worried about feel. Over all she said I was a perfect candidate for the surgery.
She had me try on the implant "sizers" again so that she could personally see them. The nurse had given me 200 and 300 cc to try, and I wouldn't even touch the 200. The 300 looked nice, but I wasn't sure because once again I was using my own bra and it felt deceiving. Dr. DeChiara brought in a zero padding almost-bandaid-looking bra that was a little to big but had a pocket for the implants so that I could have them right up against me without the added bra effect. She told me she thought the idea of 350-375 would be best for me and we all liked the look. In surgery she puts in what she called sizers that aren't actually implants first to see what looks best before actual insertion. I like that, also noting that she sits the patient up to get a "gravity look" before she finishes. After the fact I'm beginning to lean towards silicone and as far as size I'm definitely doing 375 and may just go to 400 for the heck of it. Especially since the difference is only three tablespoons of the liquid anyway.
I know I wanted saline because of being able to even out both sides, but I'd rather have them look more natural than even...
After the doctor, I talked to the nurse to get my final questions asked and also a woman who does the billing. I was approved for a friends and family discount which was awesome news and all the answers where satisfactory.
Now I'll I have to do is finalize my date, type and do a little research on the anesthesiologist. My gut is leaning towards her though...and I need to schedule soon. Hope I make the best choice!!!
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Third time the charm?
I had my third and (thankfully) final consult today. Had a late night yesterday so I'm too exhausted to write about it tonight, but it was a really good appointment. I think I've finally made up my mind!
Stay tuned!
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